I realised that I was realised
I was on my computer as always and sister Gayattrii asked help to upload a kiirtan on BD group. So i started working on it and made a video 4 it.
While doing it, i felt so much Love and i wanted to cry. It was getting impulsive...
After make the video and upload i went to meditate, but i couldnt stop hearing this kiirtan in my head and i saw a heart in my meditation.
When i finished meditating i got a feeling she was sad and went to the computer. We spoke and she showed me a stone she found. In this stone there was a heart. I also saw a heart in my meditation.
Then, i felt the necessity to hear those kiirtan again, because lately many things has happened.
This thing to surrender to Baba was the best thing i ever learned.Ive asked and surrender many things to Baba and everything has happened.
Strong connections are really happening. Through phone, through skype, through reaction, through meditation...through heart!
I went to the computer and i was talking w someone on the skype and listening to kiirtan and started to feel like an incredible esctase!
I started to write down everything i was feeling, but i could only feel, not to express it.
So i closed my eyes and started to cry. Tears of joy! The person who was in front of the camera on skype was in esctasy to c me shining in esctasy!!
And i started crying and crying more and more louder.
My mother heard me crying and asked me why i was crying. So i told her everything.
I believe everything happens w some reason. Ive just surrender to make my relation w my family better. I believe it has improve, once me and my mother had a long and nice conversation about it!!
After that i went to meditate and it felt soooo good!!!
Baba Nam Kevalam!!!
But i couldnt sleep without sending this real story.Here goes little thing i wrote still in esctasy:
Tears of joy, tears of happiness
Dropping on my clothes,
Jumping, slowly through my face,
Laughing like crazy,
Dancing w an ecstasy mind,
Flowing in the Space
In a special and big place
In the Universe,
In the Supreme...
While doing it, i felt so much Love and i wanted to cry. It was getting impulsive...
After make the video and upload i went to meditate, but i couldnt stop hearing this kiirtan in my head and i saw a heart in my meditation.
When i finished meditating i got a feeling she was sad and went to the computer. We spoke and she showed me a stone she found. In this stone there was a heart. I also saw a heart in my meditation.
Then, i felt the necessity to hear those kiirtan again, because lately many things has happened.
This thing to surrender to Baba was the best thing i ever learned.Ive asked and surrender many things to Baba and everything has happened.
Strong connections are really happening. Through phone, through skype, through reaction, through meditation...through heart!
I went to the computer and i was talking w someone on the skype and listening to kiirtan and started to feel like an incredible esctase!
I started to write down everything i was feeling, but i could only feel, not to express it.
So i closed my eyes and started to cry. Tears of joy! The person who was in front of the camera on skype was in esctasy to c me shining in esctasy!!
And i started crying and crying more and more louder.
My mother heard me crying and asked me why i was crying. So i told her everything.
I believe everything happens w some reason. Ive just surrender to make my relation w my family better. I believe it has improve, once me and my mother had a long and nice conversation about it!!
After that i went to meditate and it felt soooo good!!!
Baba Nam Kevalam!!!
But i couldnt sleep without sending this real story.Here goes little thing i wrote still in esctasy:
Tears of joy, tears of happiness
Dropping on my clothes,
Jumping, slowly through my face,
Laughing like crazy,
Dancing w an ecstasy mind,
Flowing in the Space
In a special and big place
In the Universe,
In the Supreme...